lately i've been having a really weird relationship with my phone and how i interact with it. it sort of started when i first started making this site. since then, i've been trying to pay attention to my screen time more and how i spend my free time outside of work. doing that...made me sad. one week i noticed that i spent 24 hours on instagram stuck in a doomscrolling spiral over the course of 7 days. realizing i spent an entire day on instagram made me want to throw up and die and explode. since then i've been wanting to be more mindful of how i spend my time, and how i use technology. part of that change was me wanting to start collecting cd's, so i've been doing that for the last month or so. you can check out my cd list here! it's been really fun. there's something about having to be mindful about what music you put on and listening through an album in its entirety. i've also gotten to play around with burning cd's and making silly little mixtapes. ive made a hatsune miku/vocaloid mix, and a nightcore mix and those have been fun.
as for actually using technology less...i guess that isn't even really the goal. i just want to not waste so much time doing stupid pointless garbage like scrolling through instagram all day. i only have so much time to do things after work so i want to be more productive, and spend more times doing things i actually enjoy. luckily i think i've actually been doing pretty well...here's a few of the cool things i've been working on lately:
there's also this trend going around that i've seen crop up where you go and create your own "personal curriculum." there's a lot of topics that i want to learn more about, or get back into learning, and i think this might be a fun way to go about it. it's supposed to be very low-stakes, and not something to beat yourself up about if you don't follow through. im considering figuring out a couple of things to focus on, and then blocking out time in my afternoons. a lot of the time, i come home from work and just...lay around, or scroll on my phone, and then suddenly its dinnertime and then i need to go to bed for work. how lame is that?
i think if i set up things for me to do in the afternoon, i'll have a lot less choice paralysis and can just get right to work on doing the things that i know i'll enjoy and will make me feel productive and fulfilled. we'll see how that goes.
i dont really know what i'm going to set as my study topics yet. i think i want to get back into learning japanese (i took it in high school, and then again in college, but i've forgotten a lot of it by now). i might throw in studying for tech certifications too, i'm almost ready to take my comptia security+ exam after a bit more studying, so whatever one i decide to do next can be on the list. i also want to sit down and practice art more regularly. i think i'll also try to include a book alongside whatever topics i pick, so that i might be motivated to read more too. we'll see how that goes. once i do get around to picking out my topics, i'll likely do a write up on here of what i'm doing and how i plan to go about it.
i think that's about it. all of this has been on my mind for a good while, and it feels good to write about it like this. i have good hopes about this working out, but i also know my adhd can make it hard to stick to things...i jump around interests way too much. i do have a doctors appointment later this month though, and i might ask about medication again. i haven't had any adhd medication since...around 2017 i think, but lately i've been thinking that it might be helpful again. my brain has felt so scattered and foggy lately, and with how hard it is for me to stay focused on things i want to do, i think it might be a good idea. guess we'll see.
if you read all of my ramblings, thanks for sticking around. it means a lot to me that people care enough to read
it, i guess, even if i don't actually know if anyone makes it this far. whatever the case, thanks. i'll see you
around.
finally had time to do some updates. got all of my oc pages done with all the art i have of all of them. that took forever, but now people can look at all the cool art i've gotten. still need to work on my art page to show off the stuff i've made. that'll come soon.
two of the people that i've shown my site to have started to make their own sites, which makes me so incredibly happy to see that my friends like to interact with my things (thank you in general to everyone who reads and interacts with my site and my art, whether you're making your own site or not).
i dont have much else for now. thanks for reading, if you're here. i hope you enjoy all my oc's!
first post only because this is the day i started working on my blog page. i really dont know what i expect to write about here. random musings, cool things im doing, events i might go to, projects im working on, and things of that nature.
i guess we will see how this goes. hopefully i can keep it up. i have a tendency to start things and not finish them. but hey, at least im starting. at the very least it will be nice to have a place to just record my thoughts, even if no one reads them. it would be nice to have it as a place to record things that i can look back on.
if you're reading this, thanks for being here.